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autumn layout

I know that it's just been recently that I changed the layout of this blog, but the seasons change so fast. So I've been working on the autumn layout. I've been struggling since I have so many ideas but they don't seem to pop! So I decided to go simple this time and hope that it turns out alright. I've made four autumn layouts and I think one of them is the "one". I'll show a quick glimpse of what it might contain. Something like this...






THE DRIVE

So I've been driving the "green" car lately and it scares me sometimes that I might scratch it or something. It's different if it's your own car because you're not too scared if anything happens to it. I wonder if Ferdie has a car for me? I'm becoming more confident that I won't screw anything up with the "green" car. He has been pretty patient with me. He's really good with keeping his cool. I don't think I can contain myself the way he does. That's what's great about him, he keeps you calm you know, just like his personality, pretty calm.

"She's back!"

On another note, my bestfriend is back in town from her travels on the east coast. At first I was a little jealous, but then after all the stories,I'm kind of glad I didn't go with her. I guess it's an east coast thing, or maybe she is just a California girl, kinda like me. :-)

It's a beautiful day!

The view from my bedroom window. This week has been full of just perfect days. Days to make long drives like what my babe is making me do.

My new product of affection

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A MUST SEE!!!!

I'm not usually the kind of person who likes to watch comedies because I don't really ever find them funny. But this movie was really funny. I mean really really funny. My cheeks hurt after the movie from laughing so much. I mean, even the credits were funny. The very beginning was funny. i will definitely buy this movie once it's out on DVD. It is hilarious!!!!! It has good ratings on both critic and viewer reviews. Seriously, this movie is the comedy of the year. You have GOT TO SEE THIS MOVIEand see what i'm talking about!!!!

Rainy days and mondays always get me down...

Actually, it's a sunday. I finally get to spend some quality time with my hubby. Although, he still has to work some time today, it will only be a few hours. Mondays and the rest of the week is a bummer. Well, i'll be off my butt and out of vacation after this week and be just as busy. Thank goodness. I'm just not a stay home and do nothing person. I always have to do something otherwise I feel like i'm wasting time. Anyways...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACE! YOU'RE NOW 11.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FERDIE! OUR BESTEST FRIEND! THE ONE WHO MAKES SERIOUS THINGS FUNNY AND MAKES FUNNY THINGS FUNNIER!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY PARE!!!! IF YOU EVER DECIDE ON A COMEDIC CAREER, WE'LL BE YOUR NUMBER 1 FAN!!! HEHEHEHEHHEHEEEEEE.....

MANY BLESSINGS TO YOU IKIE! YOU CUTE THING! pics

DUH! ME!

A million thanks to COBOLdinosaur from lissa forums!!!! Finally got this margin thing fixed. I should've known, but depended on the alignment not the margin. Didn't even bother with the margin. hehehehe... I'm a nut. Finally the last alteration to this blog for a while!!! Whew! I love forums.... hehehe. THANKS COBOLdinosaur!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah, i know

I just really wanted to make this blog have some kind of reflection of me. Or something of the sort. The cherry blossoms just wasn't it. Then it dawned on me, the things I miss the most. I miss the adventures that my friends and I used to have. The kayaking, hiking, spelunking, traveling, all that stuff. I remember when we were kayaking in some caves in anacapa island. I miss all that stuff. Stuff that used to define me. It's been a little stressful lately and I've certainly changed priorities, but deep inside, it's still there, that part of me that has always wanted adventure. That person who just loves the great outdoors. It's there somewhere, I just misplaced it somehow and now am picking up the little clues of where that part of me has gone. So here it is, the final alteration to my blog. I'll stick with this one for a while. Promise. Although I still have problems trying to text-align left on css. Doesn't seem to work. Bear with me while i try to figure it out.

kiss

Sometimes it is that first kiss that tells a woman if the man is right for her. Most of the time, you just know. It's in the look that you can sometimes tell if you're in love. Most of the time, you just know.

DUNKIN' DONUTS!

Why isn't there a Dunkin Donuts in Los Angeles?!!! I am so craving them right now!

ARRRGGGG!!!!

There are days when I hate certain people. Not the people themselves, more like how stupid they can be! This is how it works-- You get a job, you get the job description, you get trained, you gain experience, and eventually if you stay in the job a while you're technically experienced. So why do some people make you do their work when they are the ones experienced in it! This is what makes me mad. This lady got on my nerves so much that I had to let Toto reread my email to make sure I didn't sound too pissed that could get me in trouble. There are honest and sincere people out there who really try to gain a clear understanding of their faith and then there are people out there who are supposed to be the ones to support these sincere people and end up finding ways to not do their job! It's like a pastor who preaches love but is a complete racist. Anyways, I'm ranting. Eventually I might regret or rephrase what I say here tonight. I can't think anymore. But I'm done venting. I should just watch Monk and see what really happened to Trudy. Poor Monk.

STARBUCKS! is my inspiration

After the morning awakening seemed to need a little help, it was my favorite Grande Mocha that lifted my spirit. Well, more like opened my eyes. It had a quote on the cup. Thus, my quote for today. Often times I crave for coffee so much that I can't stand it anymore. Since I haven't been drinking coffee as much as I used to in college, it kind-of gives me sudden phases of craving. As if I'm somewhat addicted to it or something even though I can go months without it. It's interesting how there are restrictions on addictive things but not when it comes to drinks. We really don't have a ban on alcohol as we do on most illegal drugs, nor do have special restrictive areas for drinking either at work or other public places as we do for smoking. I wonder if in a few years coffee will be banned? After all it, does increase your heart rate, blood pressure, and more unsual lumps on a womans breast. But then alcohol is just as bad. Whenever one pees after a drink, it isn't the alcohol running down to the toilet because the alcohol is in your blood. It's the water in your body being pushed out by the alcohol. No wonder there's such thing as a hang-over. Too much of that alcohol in your head and not enough water. But will we ever ban alcohol? I think not. The majority of politicians have at least one cocktail or hard drink here and there. For some, that's what keeps them going, or make them the so called scholars of society, leaders in fact. I mean, all that alcohol can't be that bad right? Check out some leaders in some countries, one in particular that I will not mention, but you know who I mean. I guess it's the same thing with food. Or is it? Can't eat beef in India but can in the US? hmmm... So what is it exactly? What could possibly be the most logical explanation?

ON MY MIND

"Tokyo Godfathers" is a great movie. Since I'm currently collecting anime movies, this one is definitely one of my favorites. I couldn't stop laughing the whole time. It's innovative and the plot and script was just amazing. It ranks top on my anime movie list with "Spirited Away." I just love how the imagination of these great anime creators come out in their works. This movie definitely filled my heart. It's out on DVD. Out of five, I give it a five stars! http://www.sonypictures.com/cthe/tokyogodfathers/


WEALTH WEAPONS
It should be common knowledge by now that children born into tremendous wealth become very unstable and ill-natured citizens. Why then do most wealthy parents continue to raise their children that way?

"The future of society is indexed by the youth of today. In them we see the future teachers and lawmakers and judges, the leaders and the people, that determine the character and destiny of the nation. How important, then, the mission of those who are to form the habits and influence the lives of the rising generation.

To deal with minds is the greatest work ever committed to men. The time of parents is too valuable to be spent in the gratification of appetite or the pursuit of wealth or fashion. God has placed in their hands the precious youth, not only to be fitted for a place of usefulness in this life but to be prepared for the heavenly courts." E.G. White--HS 209, 1886. (Te 270.)

WHAT IS AN INSPIRATION?

Stimulation of the mind or emotions to a high level of feeling or activity. The condition of being so stimulated. An agency, such as a person or work of art, that moves the intellect or emotions or prompts action or invention. Something, such as a sudden creative act or idea, that is inspired. Divine guidance or influence exerted directly on the mind and soul of humankind -- This is why I added a quote of the day to my blog.

Death of a legend

Peter Jennings 1938-2005. A great man who, despite being a highschool drop-out proved that you can be sucessful if you just work hard. For him, extra hard work. From the coverage of the Berlin Wall, the civil rights movement, and traveling all over the world, mostly in dangerous situations to bring us the news since 1983 as the ABC evening news anchor. It is so sad. A most honorable man.

my obsession

So we went to see "The March of the Penguins". As for those who know me all too well, I've been crazy about penguins since childhood. Now they're actually doing a movie about it. I think i have more penguin stuff than anybody. Toto didn't want to see it but when he did, he really liked it. Amazing how we learn so many new things about the creatures that live in this world. Out of ten, i give the movie a 10! It's just amazing, plus the camera crew were amazing to have to film in such conditions.

it's the weather

I love spring and winter, I hate super hot summers. It's easier to get warm than it is to try to stay cool. I decided to change the colors of my blog to what i feel is currently most desired, cooler weather. We went to Loma Linda today and the place just felt like a large oven. It was way too hot. We really must have some well needed rain. I want to be where the cherry blossoms grow, the cool of the shade, the beauty of the sky contrasting a most amazing floral presentation.

a little jealous

There are five girls in our family. Two from my Aunt Ying, Two from my Aunt Bebot, and Me. Two have a child, one is pregnant and the other one will probably get pregnant before me! And I'm the oldest of all my female cousins! Here I am married and this burden is on me. Well, my only hope is that God will give me one when he knows it's time. I guess right now He doesn't think it's time to have one. I know He hears my prayers, our prayers, but I guess He knows what's best. I struggle with this a lot. My cousin who recently got married (didn't invite me btw) and who was my bridesmaid during my wedding, is pregnant and flaunting her sexy body. Makes me so jealous. I hope she comes out with good looking babies. Her hubby seems to have a decent poise. Langga! you make me so jealous! It's always the "ilong" that we're concerned about. I'm not too worried about the nose for my future baby. My husband and I are ok. ARGG! I should stop this complaining. It will come in time. I'm sure it will. I just need to wait. Patience however is not my strongest attribute.

finished list

I finally finished my list of things to do before I die. Though some people have probably already done most of those things. At least I got the "get married" part out of the way. It's a pretty long list. I was hoping to reach a hundred, but I guess I'll just add to it with time. Oh well. I should really get out of bed now and eat breakfast. Eversince this vacation started, I do nothing but browse the internet, eat, sleep, and watch tv. I'm going to gain weight. Well, that's a good thing, I need some extra pounds to add. At least 15 pounds is my goal. I didn't want to add that to my things to do list because I might not want to literally gain too much. Just enough to make me look healthier, really. Just be healthy. As my picture shows, I'm a little on the skinny side. I hope my Babe won't mind. Eventually I'll add more links once I get the hang of this.

There's no tomorrow

I treat each day like there's no tomorrow. That's why I hate mornings. He leaves me in the mornings. He leaves me longing to touch, feel, smell, kiss, hug, taste, and twist myself around him. I hate it when he leaves. For over eight hours a day I don't see him. How does one know if you might not see someone tomorrow? How do would you know when your life or that of someone you love will be taken away?


When we got married I don't think I thought about what would really change in my life. But now I know. I know that my life is him, being with him, loving him, having his children, growing old with him. I want to love him each day like there's no tomorrow. That's what keeps me going. That's what keeps the spice in our relationship going. That's what makes me love him more.

can't sleep

Do you ever try to sleep and all you ever do instead is think and think about stuff that you just can't get out of your head? My Babe has to go to work early so he goes to sleep early. But I woke up much later than he did this morning so i'm not at all sleepy. He on the other hand is, plus the fact that he has to go to work early. Sometimes I just wish that we had the same schedules so we could spend some "getting ready" time in the mornings like we used to. Oh well. I love him so much though.

Right now i'm thinking about our cute cat Nomi. Strategically named in japanese for flea. She was covered in fleas when we first got her and my sister-in-laws gave her the flea pinching/killing/soaping time of her life. She was about less than a month old when we got her. First our older cat Rufus (who happens to be extremely traumatized and anti-social) got scared of the little thing. (the name in association with how he was found - on the roof) Now the two felines play with each other like crazy. I think Rufus learned a new language from this experience, considering that he probably hasn't seen another cat from the first days he was born. They're so cute together.

more about me

Growing up I've always felt a little resentful of the things that have happened in my life. Primarily when I was sent to the philippines for highschool. It was rather hard for me to adapt. Everybody spoke the language except me, a filipina who was not openly accepted by her own people but could never be a true American due to the color of her skin. It was hard because at that time my mother was also going through a very tough divorce that lasted almost seven years. We were very poor then and the only thing she could do was to send me to the Philippines. My classmates made fun of my shoes, my socks, my uniform. I could hardly study because half the time I had a hard time understanding the english that my teachers spoke. Overtime ofcourse I got over it and things got a little better. But it really was never comfortable.

While the majority of my classmates had a mother, father, and siblings, it was hard for me to have friends that would understand the divorce my parents were going through, the tough times I had to reconcile childhood molestation and knowing that I would never really meet my biological father. I had to deal with the change in culture, of people, and being a teenager at the same time. But I learned something rather important.

I want to teach my kids to not discriminate based on cultural experiences or social class position. I want them to understand that you can be the smartest person in school, but being schooled does not equal being educated. That character is more evident on how you perform at home, how you treat your mother is how they will treat their wives, how they treat their mother is how their children will treat them. I want my children to grow up with a father. I hate the idea of divorce. Marriage is not just an individual's satisfaction of needs, but the psychological and emotional needs of the family as a whole. Marriage is not a board game that you can decide to quit anytime it doesn't go your way, it is a journey that you take whatever road you may tread on. It requires endurance as well as determination. Marriage is not an institute of the law, rather a gift from God. A much treasured gift that only God should be allowed to break apart if He sees fit.

At the same time, I do not blame my mother for any of her choices. Her choices have affected me and made me who I am. I will cherish my mother like a princess, not only because I love her, but because my example will hopefully show my children how I would want them to treat me. Finally, I must admit that I still hold some kind of resentment to many of those who blatantly refused to accept me whether it be due to popularity or social postion. But, one thing that I must continually tell myself, it is not our fault that one's character is formed, but rather our responsibility to adapt while at the same time stand for our beliefs, to understand while at the same time allow ourselves to be understood, and to respect while at the same time achieve a respectable disposition. If hardships and obstacles have taught me one thing, it would be God, the giver of my strength who above all else has kept me going till this very minute.