ashes are everywhere!

while the rest of the country is hustling about because of the hurricanes, here in Los Angeles County, we're overwhelmed with fires. The past three days the sky has been nothing but red and shadowy. You can smell the smoke whereever you go and ashes are all over the place, on your car and everywhere you step on or look. More than 16,000 acres have been burned and the fire is still raging. Here are just some pictures I got from the LA Times. Please pray for us who might eventually be in the path of the scary engulfing flames.

I have a confession...

Ok, I have a confession to make...I like to look at women... Ok, let me explain. There a few women I think are beautiful and I admire. Just to name a few, Catherine Zeta-jones, Monica Belluci, Kate Beckingsale, Charlene Gonzales, Kristen Kreuk. The truth is, I just admire their beauty. Kinda a way for me to look and compare and just simply be jealous but at the same time find them beautiful, graceful, or talentted, or even hot! But I'm not attracted to them in a lustful way, just admire them. Is it wrong to do so? "He" said it was weird and that I should be looking at men instead. But, i mean,... i look at women because I want to reach a certain ideal, like how they dress, they move, they act. Is it "that" wrong? Am I the only female who like to look at other beautiful women? I just don't have a male figure to really admire except maybe AROD and Christian Bale. But even they are not as "beautiful" in a more definitive sense as some women are. Men can be attractive, but not handsome. The handsome ones seem overrated, like Tom Cruise. But for women, beauty can be something all in itself. Am I really so wrong and obsessed? Is this really something I should get therapy for?

"sigh"

It's been such a busy week. I'm so jealous at those who are having their vacation soon (hint:she resides here) and those who practically live in vacation (hint:rainbow lucky girl) and a few other peeps who I know just had a great vacation, although they got home broke... (no hints here, i might get in trouble). Anyways, I'm just going to stress it out for about a few more months. At least I have my trusty favorite movie to cheer me up, and "NO" it's not a penguin movie. "Secret Garden" and "A Little Princess", and yeah, i know, i'm too old to watch these kiddy movies but i'm still a little girl inside. The "Secret Garden" i've probably seen a million times and occasionally sneak in a few minutes of my favorite scenes during the days i'm bored or stressed. I just bought "A Little Princess" a few months ago. Adding to my collection of childhood movies. Among which includes the "Neverending Story" and the very primitive clay animation "The Wind in the Willows" (which I thought was cool when I was a child, now... still considered "WAS" cool when I was a child).

House: There's Waldo.

Season premier: Tuesday September 13, 2005 on FOX

House: I have to make him all better for the state to kill him. Is it me or does that seem ironic?

THIS SHOW IS AWESOME AND EXTREMELY WELL WRITTEN!!!!! NUFF SAID...

so...yeah...

So my autumn layout finally is out. It's not one of my favorites. I've been struggling with this layout and have tried different ones to see what it would look like. I made roughly four layouts for fall and finally decided on this one. It's not all that but it will do for the meantime till winter comes around. Sorry guys, it's not that pretty, i know, just pretty ordinary.

The theme is based, obviously, on autumn, but it's also based on my wants. My bestfriend Sheryl and I have been wanting to live in a place that is kind of "woodsy" but not too far from the city. The big city. I've grown up in so many environments, moved so much, and have finally decided that I want the cake and eat it too. This photo shows the kind of place I want to live in. Near the woods I guess but not too far from the city. I heard some places in Seattle and Portland are like this, the neighborhoods I mean. "Sigh"...wishful thinking.

do you remember?

I remember "today" just a few years ago. Getting ready to leave the house, when I saw the tv and my whole world stopped. The twin towers disappeared faster than i could absorb the shock...


September 11, 2005, in New York, A mourner stands by a reflecting pool at the site of the former World Trade Center during a ceremony to commemorate the fourth anniversary of the terror attacks.

See why he's in pain...here

my critique

Episode 101
"Pilot"
Airdate: 08/29/2005

Episode 102
"Allen"
Airdate: 08/29/2005

It just keeps you on your feet. You're not sure if this guy is tough enough, smart enough, or just cocky. What is for sure is that it's a thrilling show. I just don't know if anyone is actually that brave to pull a stunt like that. Despite the complex development of the story, it is revealed extremely well, and as the end of the episode unfolded, i was with sweaty palms and wanting more. If the rest of the series is as thrilling and exciting as these episodes, then this show is certainly going to top the ratings.

Wentworth Miller's (Michael Scofield)performance has kept me interested,wanting to know more. I'm anxious to see how his character progresses throughout the series. I doubt that this series will pull through another season. I mean, after the prisonbreak, then what? Do we change the title?