what nerve!

"Well, if you were fat maybe I'd help you..."

I went to LANE BRYANT yesterday with my friend. No, you're right, i don't fit any of those clothes but my friend needed some good interview clothes so i was there to help her out. Anyways, I didn't tell her this but this black sales lady was there. She took one good look at me when we came in and she had the nastiest look like "what do you think you're doing here " look. I left the store a couple of times while waiting for my friend to choose and went around the nearer stores in the mall to find some shorts. The second time i went back in, i found a shirt that i thought would look cute on my friend. So I asked the sales lady if they had it in a different color or one without buttons. The lady looked at me with the biggest attitude moving her index finger back and forth and said "Well, if you were fat maybe I'd help you but since your little skinny ass walked in here just to insult us big women, then i don't think i owe you any explanation or help." Then she walked away rolling her eyes! What nerve! I wasn't there to buy stuff for ME, I was there to help my friend pick out some stuff. And she knew that too! She saw us walk in together! She just waited for the right moment when my friend was far enough away so she could insult me like that!!!! What nerve!!! I never chose to be skinny you know. At least they have stores like LANE BRYANT specifically made for heavy set women. They don't have stores for size "0"s and it's really hard to find a size zero that fits you. I literally have to go to the juniors section, a twenty-six year old woman going to the juniors section, to find clothes. You know how hard it is during interviews when they see this tiny girl that looks like ten years old! Plus, men tend to take advantage of you as well! It's not easy being this skinny, and I really wish i could gain more weight! But it's really hard for me. Ask anybody! It's not something i'm proud of, but if big women get treated badly, so do we small skinny women. I shouldn't have been treated that way. That was so not fair!

stop bitching

Please read what the picture says. If anything, these images break my heart. It literally hurts my chest, makes me cry and die inside. I complain a lot about a lot of stupid things but then i fail to realize something. We are certainly a billion times more fortunate than these children. So why are we bitching and complaining?? If only I had all the money in the world, i would give it all to help these poor children. Why don't the rich billionaires have any compassion? What have we become?

//EDIT(7.11.06): Ok, so I take back what I said about the billionaires, although i still believe that the majority don't do their share. The two mentioned in the comment are certainly exceptions.

mislay my sovereignty

Losing my sanity, my sense of independence.

It's a given isn't it that once you get married you depend on each other for support and consult each other in every important aspect of decision making. I've always been an independent person, seeking out solutions to my own problems and finding my own way of working things out. However, since I've gotten married, I’ve been so dependent on my husband, leading to some kind of frustration. Not that it's bad to be dependent because that's how relationships are supposed to work, but I sometimes feel the need to make decisions without consult, which in turn of course could lead to disaster. Well, at some point I’m going to have to suck it up and take a deep breath. It's for my own good anyways, just have to let go of that pride you know. I just have a hard time doing so. It's difficult and nobody said that it would be a smooth ride, but one thing is for sure, I no longer hold selfishly the rights to the wheel, i will at many times be a passenger!

fUnFuN!

So here's some videos from over the weekend. First the socials night. We had a fasion show of famous filipina women but we had the men dress up! It's so funny!!! CHECK OUT MY HUSBAND IN HIS GREEN DRESS! On father's day we took dad to Long beach. Here are some videos of them with the birds. I might not be keeping these videos up for long, so enjoy while it's still up. There are also pictures from this weekend up on the gallery. Enjoy!

HUH????!!!

HaPpY bIrThDaY tO mE?????

edit//[6.15. 6:11pm] for those who know me and my obsession with penguins, my Babe got me the BEST card ever!!!