Costume of choice. Wadya think?

so.. i guess they won!

White sox won...drought over...
Houston didn't have a chance. That's ok, Roger's got two already...

TOO MANY DATES

Happy pseudowedding anniversary BABY!!!! hehehe... for those who know, yes, this is what I call it. I'm horrible with remembering dates. This is no exception until he reminded me. "sigh"

Constant

I have problems dealing with my past. My friend Awon told me something about making peace. Making peace with our past. The most critical time of my life I was an outcast. Growing up an only child not only did I have difficulty making friends, but at where I was, people didn't want to make friends with me. Only a few, who spoke like me paid attention. It wasn't that I was jealous or bitter, just that I was mistreated and misunderstood. I was spit on once reading a book in the library. My socks were made fun of and my uniform because I couldn't afford to buy a new uniform. In college, my rebellion was short lived. I did all that, I drank a lot, I hung out with the wrong friends, I partied a lot, I rebelled against God, I was in the wrong relationships, in abusive relationships, I travelled without caution. I did all that, and it took me nowhere. Then I sometimes think, those people that i have so much hate for never experienced my experiences. Never was molested as a child, never grew up an only child to a single mother and having never met their biological father, never experienced being moved from one place to another, from one home to another, from one school to another, never dealt with being home alone at age 9, never had to earn money just to put myself through school. Their experiences could never compare to mine. Thus, I should never compare myself to them. My husband told me, stop thinking about your past and those people of you past because they probably don't even think about you at all. So either way, you're losing. They have moved on, you haven't.

Finally!

Rain has finally arrived to town!!!! Although, sometimes i wish the rain would come at a different time. Like before the fires ravage the entire southern california and make the mountains brushless. Then we wouldn't have so many landslides... Like the side of our house. I'll post a pic of it soon and show you what i mean fearing those landslides.
edit// here's what you see from our backyard. see the landslide patches from last year?

I'm so surprised at the somewhat naive and hardheaded mentality of some southern californians. I don't mean to offend, but california is known for its sunshine as well as its landslides. So why do they continue to build super expensive homes on the mountainside that is ready to tumble and roll downhill? What is up with that? If you drive on the freeway near where i live, it winds between the mountains and often you see development on the side of the mountain. Currently, that house i saw the other day was for sale. There must have been only ten inches of soil that was holding it up. No surprise, now that the rain has come, it's now on the market. I have nothing against southern california, but the rich should really use their heads sometimes and not just their pockets.
EDIT// HERE'S THAT PICTURE OF THAT HOUSE. WOULD ANYONE ACTUALLY WANT TO BUY THIS? ESPECIALLY SINCE RAINY SEASON IS COMING? SERIOUSLY!

What i miss, the basement. Homes with basements. like out east. It's just that cozy extra space of anything and everything. California can't have basements, earthquakes you know. Winter is here, but never does it feel like it. I miss the snow, the bare trees, the cold. The real winter. "sigh"
I should really consider moving somewhere like Seattle, Chicago, Portland, somewhere. Supposedly readers digest said that Portland was one of the cleanest cities and Chicago however wasn't so lucky. As for the South, I don't think i'll go to the south though. The last time I looked, the hairstyle was stuck in the 80's. I'm not generalizing though, some places in the south are just plain beautiful. But the accent...hmmm... NY and NJ is a little crowded. I'm just brainstorming, i miss what real winter really feels like, that's all.